call me past 3, you can get it in for free aye, aye (x4) on my own feeling lonely like i did something wrong but i realize that i'm i'm i'm safe safety safely you placed me back on earth you see waiting, baby, come back to earth god's gotta take a rest.

voice over: ok so, i'm starting to realize how much i love the end of things and in this context relationships and why i don't like the beginning because in the beginning, i know nothing, there's a lot of uncertainty-- anything can happen. But by the end, i know what happened and somehow i think that's a very grounding feeling but it's not because it makes me upset. It's just familiar, it's not necessarily fulfilling. lyrics: living on my own again searching through my phone and then find myself engulfed in when we were lovers i cried and i tried to let it go and i cried, and i tried to let it go (she said) i love you i love you i love you (she said) i love you i love you i doooo000oo and she said i'm gonna love you all (x5) and she said i love you i love you i doooo000oo (this is good, this is cool) Kansai: I’m oh smooth I take words like drinking Friend friend wait girlfriend I was thinking No way the path the same grace I thought god was given False pretenses I been running forward Now I’m 8 3/4 Seen love is so wide but I’m scared to see the borders No piece of pizza order Just a vegan and a ocean For a demon and locust to go Raging to the cornfield Nappyboy-shaped Capricorn Twist of fate patterns change I was fucked up Almost thought My luck’s up I could get a buck or a nut What the point Smoking joints like holidays that’s only on occasion I ain’t taking no vacations Without you I think wrote this shit about you (i know i wrote this shit about you, i wrote it for you) Seen god in the mirror it was me But it was you and me plus 3 I don’t really know what that means But I feel it and she said i'm gonna love you all (x5) flying free as a bird you and me there's a 3rd times 3 do the math b, we're free hear the birds sing watch them flap their wings hear the birds sing this could be you and me do you want free? do you want me? free and she said waking up and i'm in dreams see you right next to me

(did the joker play you again little girl? did you get played? step right up, wouldn't be the first time) (that hurts, that hurt right in my fucking stomach you know?) goin craaaaazyy, baby's got me on a lockdown on a on a ona ona lockdown must be maaaaaaybe something we could move past now maybe we could get past now (put the past in the past and future in the future and we'll stay in the present, cus there's nothing we can do but stay here, stay here with you) (all of 2019 too you know? like what the fucK? just one fucking shithead after another fucking shithead after another fucking shithead after anotherr fucking shithead) feeling like persephone hades is all up in me wanna get control again wanna know if you feel me did he eat my soul again? cooped up feeling chickly ona ona ona on a lockdown going crazzzzyyyy maybe we could move past now move move move move the past down i know you wanna make it hot want me want me to stop now? feeling like persephone hades is all up in me wanna get control again wanna know if you feel me did he eat my soul again? cooped up feeling chickly (watch me shut down) I just care about people you know so i'm like what thee fucK? what the fUCK is up witchu? how the fuck you goin do that to me? what? it makes no sense? she’s so dainty but that ain’t me time to break free (step right up, to see your favorite light-skin. get a look for free 3 on me the 4th ones gonna cost you) feeling like persephone hades is all up in me wanna get control again wanna know if you feel me did he eat my soul again? cooped up feeling chickly baby chicks she’s so dainty feeling like persephone hades is all up in me wanna get control again wanna know if you feel me did he eat my soul again? cooped up feeling chickly baby chicks she’s so dainty but that ain’t me time to break free speculation? exotification? if you see that nigga tell him he can kiss my fucking a$$, lick that shit!

voice over: and i just let it go and i'm like "you know what? imma just visualize some angels." and i've seen how that literally manifested into something beautiful happening, but your text reminded me of that so thank you. lyrics: my nigga don't play me imma have our babies i've been waiting for you my whole life i know i'm 22 but i just might be all right yeah be alright me and b are alright his body’s in fight or flight mode but when im with him, i know we’re home we follow our fate so gracefully i look at his face knowing im queen he rests so peacefully beside me and i dream how life is all it seems whatever my eyes can see the stars they shine for free they shine for you and me come on and shine with me b i want you to shine with me b i’ve been waiting for you my whole life i know i’m 22 but i just might be all right yeah we’ll be be alright yeah me and b are alright the whole world is alright

please listen. -- hey girl do you have confidence? hey you! did someone tell you, you're beautiful? hey boy, it's ok to have feelings (got you in a trance, now you wanna dance) sit your ass down...and ground. is my baby? is she doin alright? the whole world is crumblin down down down down down for my baby is she doin alright? (YOU SEE THAT SHIT OUTSIDE? WHAT ABOUT THE shit IN YOUR MIND? TELL ME HOW WE GET HERE? WAS IT FEAR?)

voice over: girl, and that’s when i’m like, is that how we found the glitch in the simulation cus ya how do i see all these motherfuckerz talkin about how silly and all these critiques and commentaries but then i still go to the store and there somehow has to be a lot of motherfuckerz who don’t agree with how i feel because exactly they are literally buying out stores and buying out toilet paper like...are we in V for Vendetta or som-- girl this is some Aries energy like so much fire !! so manic ! i can’t (i see you baby, i see you baby) i feel insane, inside my brain feeling all of my rage i feel pain all the anger and frustration i feel it TODAY. i feel pain bell hooks: as well as this sort of southern Black aspect of that and at the same time to be a part of a diasporic world culture of ideas and to see, how can there be a kind of interplay between all of those different forces? popular culture is one of the sites where there can be an interplay all of all of all of my anger all of my rage i feel it TODAY but i feel it i’m alive and i feel it i’m alive i’m allowed to feel ALIVE (i see it you’re fighting, i see my sisters you’re fighting, i see it you’re fighting, i see it we’re fighting) fighting me fight me i just might be fighting me (have you seen what the fuck is going on outside!? like that’s why i’d be so angry..duh...ahhh..making myself feel bad for that shit? why? you or i don’t need to do that) money ain't the end all be all but still i fall but still i fall you know how like capitalism is um like this larger larger thing that is really deeply ingrained in my brain. i feel bad because i’m not doing shit fast enough but i’m at HOME…. we can go sloooowwww. we can go slow. could we all could we all could we all fight? i just MIGHT Toni Morrrison: ...that idea of the white oppressor, and i thought, i can’t do that. what is the world like if he’s not there? and the freedom, the open world, that appears is stunning. and i notice most African-American womxn writers did the same thing. Toni Cade Bambara, not always Alice Walker but many times, Maya Angelou -- those writers and the poets, cus the poets were more productive i think at that time Adrienne Maree Brown: so trying to get groups to let go of thinking that things are going to go linearly and get in tune with what really matters to us, our strategic intentions that need to be realized in every action that we do. what are the strategic intentions that will guide all of our work? so that we can be non-linear but also so that we can be iterative. iterative means we’re practicing, we’re always practicing things. and what are some of the things you practice now that you would say are not aligned with your values? maybe shout them out Toni Morrison: but there was this free space opened up by refusing to respond every minute to the gaze -- somebody else’s gaze. so that flavored a great deal of what i was writing. WHAT WOULD YOU LIKE TO SEE IN THE WORLD LITTLE GIRL? IN THE WORLD. WHAT WOULD YOU LIKE TO SEE IN THE WORLD? kansai: Birds still chirping And the trees ain’t dead just yet When the times comes the clock ain’t running The earth still turning with or without us I thought I might hurt to find out it don’t matter Realized I been here before Black man pattern I think I need a band-aid Forgot a gun is really man-made Just like a glass bottle And the label Head to the ground like an ostrich Thoughts going south like Austin I thought I needed cream like Boston What I really need is a *uh* I been big dreaming for a long time (money ain’t the end all be all no money ain’t the end all be all we’ll be alright we’ll be all right) and I feel it i’m alive oh i